I reopened my Facebook yesterday. My blog had only been updated a few days and already I felt compelled to show it to the world.
What was I trying to show exactly? My growth?
Honestly, I feel like a fraud half the time. I don’t know how to be happy, much less the secret to inner peace.
(I also have no idea how to embed links in this site.)
Anyway, I wrote a post on manifestation: “Think happy thoughts” and positive affirmations.
But do you know what I really tell myself daily?
“I’m the worst.”
It’s usually the first thought that pops up after I’ve done something I perceive as wrong.
The thing is, I know I’m not the worst. Otherwise I wouldn’t have felt motivated to reopen my Facebook just to promote my blog.
But maybe what I really need is just validation from myself. So new affirmation:
You are not the worst. I am simply trying to do the best I can.
My ego, on the other hand, still has trouble processing that my best will never be perfect. And that’s ok, because hopefully being authentic matters more.