The Problem with Ego

I reopened my Facebook yesterday. My blog had only been updated a few days and already I felt compelled to show it to the world.

What was I trying to show exactly? My growth?

Honestly, I feel like a fraud half the time. I don’t know how to be happy, much less the secret to inner peace.

Take my last post for example

(I also have no idea how to embed links in this site.)

Anyway, I wrote a post on manifestation: “Think happy thoughts” and positive affirmations.

But do you know what I really tell myself daily?

“I’m the worst.”

It’s usually the first thought that pops up after I’ve done something I perceive as wrong.

The thing is, I know I’m not the worst. Otherwise I wouldn’t have felt motivated to reopen my Facebook just to promote my blog.

But maybe what I really need is just validation from myself. So new affirmation:

You are not the worst. I am simply trying to do the best I can.

My ego, on the other hand, still has trouble processing that my best will never be perfect. And that’s ok, because hopefully being authentic matters more.

2 responses to “The Problem with Ego”

  1. I have met you in the Bipolar Now Facebook group and wanted to tell you that I just joined School of Self Image by Tonya Leigh. I thought you might be interested in this. I think Bipolar wrecks self image.

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