Bipolar Thoughts


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Waves of love

Love, to me, is the most coveted and important emotion we can give to another person. In my marriage our love ebbs & flows like the waves in the ocean. Sometimes there’s a high tide where the love feels all consuming. It washes over me and I feel nothing but bliss & happiness. Other times,…

A letter to my insecure self

I have spent most of my life feeling insecure. This is evident throughout my writing but I finally wanted to address this insecurity with a letter. To my insecure self, Over the years I have beat myself up with feelings of little self worth. Continuously I have badgered myself over things I have said, how…

Lessons in Letting Go

I have always had trouble with letting go of emotions, people, things… the list can be endless. I tend to hold onto things that are beyond my control and it creeps into my mental health causing me to feel this weight of negativity and self-doubt. I see myself as an empathetic person, meaning I can…

Happier than a pig in mud

Scrolling through my social media, you’ll probably notice I favor my pigs. I do. I’ve been in love with pigs since I was a little girl after watching Charlotte’s Web. If you come to my home you’ll see it covered with pig decor. I really love pigs. They fascinate me. I can spend hours out…

Hanging on to Hope

According to the national alliance on mental illness (NAMI), almost half of people who die by suicide had a known mental illness. The stats surrounding bipolar & suicide are terrifying to me. Another study done by Cambridge University revealed that 30% people with bipolar disorder will attempt suicide once in their lives. The suicide rate…

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